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| Whats been going on in my life.... Well my church life has finally calmed down alot. I could not be happier at a church. I love my new catholic faith. It seems everything about the catholic religion makes sense. I just could not be happier with it! I like everyone at the church. The only one downfall to the church is my ex goes to it,but i've advoided her so well i've not seen her once there. So yeah going great...This is about all the info i wana volonteer but if there is anything else you'd like to know about feel free to ask.
This is the last time
That I will say these words
I remember the first time
The first of many lies
Sweep it into the corner
Or hide it under the bed
Say these things they go away
But they never do
Something I wasn't sure of
But I was in the middle of
Something I forget now
But I've seen too little of
The last time
You fall on me for anything you like
Your one last line
You fall on me for anything you like
And years make everything alright
You fall on me for anything you like
And I no I don't mind
This is the last time
That I will show my face
One last tender lie
And then I'm out of this place
So tread it into the carpet
Or hide it under the stairs
Say that some things never die
Well I tried and I tried
Something I wasn't sure of
But I was in the middle of
Something I forget now
But I've seen too little of
The last time
You fall on me for anything you like
Your one last line
You fall on me for anything you like
And years make everything alright
You fall on me for anything you like
And I no I don't mind
The last time
You fall on me for anything you like
Your one last line
You fall on me for anything you like
And years make everything alright
You fall on me for anything you like
And I know I don't mind | | |
| Ah,where to begin. I shall start with my love life first. My love life has been terribley sucky. The love of my life and I spit up at the start of the summer do to reasons listed in other parts of my site you can scroll back. It seems any time I try to find a new love or girl it always seems to go bad. It really seems as though i'll never really find a girl who really likes me. Its extreamly crazy the differnt things. I thought I found a girl recently. very very sweet girl. I never as much as held her hand but I thought she liked me but found out differnt. Sadly still not over my ex Lauren. Its sad when every decision in your life is still made by the thought of one person that cares nothing of your life. I know she's probally moved on and there is no chance of us ever dating again so i'm left with the difficult task of accepting it and moving on,but every girl i meet seems to be sub par to her. She seemed to fit my life perfectly,mostly because well she grew up with me for many years and her place in my life was made a long time ago and grew larger as time went,and now its empty...
My church life is pretty screwed up. Everyone in my youth group is leaving due to age because their all leaving off to college. Amber and Ben are on their way to Missiouri soon. Nate and Andrew are on their way to New Mexico. So this leaves me in a lack of the best drummer ever. My bass player. one back up singer+my best friend.,and my sound guy. I've recently signed the papers and sent them in to join the Catholic church in Biloxi,Ms. I've joined the RCIA program of Fatima church. But my church problems go much deeper. its been a crazy love triangle that i belive will go crazy at the trip were all taking. I sorta had a bit of a crush on a girl in the youth and well took her signals wrong so things are a bit akward there,but also another girl in the youth kissed a guy which had just recently broken up with another singer...so its been a bit of fighting going on.With so much drama and everyone leaving I'm actually very pleased to be leaving the church. I'll be going to a catholic church with Adults and no drama for the most part. Its quit crazy that youth was the only thing that got me through this summer and at the very end i'm leaving and it will never again be the same.
My family life is pretty crazy.. my paretns are divorcing and the lawyers are prolonging trying to run up hours to make more money by adding thing in the contract and such. Also I have all the new things getting used to live living with one parent about to stay with another...ext ext all the troubles of a regular divorce. | | |
| I have not much to say right now. I've been trying to keep busy and just push stuff beind me as i've been doing all summer long. I've been playing alot of music lately with people. I've found this to be a great outlet for myself. I've finished another book of the bible just a couple more now and i've finished pretty much the whole thing. i've got a few books left in the old testimate that i skipped over. I've found the more and more i read of some stories the more pissed i become. The story of JOB and the way God tested him.... that story pissed me off the most. Oh well... nothing I can do to change those things. Just trying to change my life and get a grip on the things I can change. | | |
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The storms of my life continue to rage on. There seems to be no sign of a happy ending to this story of mine I call my life. It seems as though there may not be a light shining through the darkness. The darkness grows over shadowing all of which i love the most and i fear i'll never see it again. Things have changed over the course of this summer. Everything that was once intact and whole have been split in two. Examples of this would be...my relationship with Lauren,my family,my heart,my friends,and much more. I've been told time will heal all wounds. Time has done nothing for me but taken my tomorrows and made them yesterdays. They've taken my dreams and made them into regrets and what could have been's. They say when we find happyness with some one keep it,embrass it,enjoy it because these are the times we remeber and turn into memories. We think of all the good times in our life when all went right and we were happy,but should we not also think of the bad times in our life to help us to strive to advoid the same mistakes or to cause the same pain upon some one else. My father has to leave the house this Monday because my mom has won the house in the divorce settlement. All the happys days living together as "the guys" are gone. We are stuck living with my mother and her crazy ways. She is as ever changing as the ocean and that is a terrible thing. I have no stablilty in my life now. I have no girlfriend,no real family,no real friends,and i'm missing alot more. In this time of lonleyness feeling like the lonley ship in the middle of the ocean i look to myself for strength. I shall keep going until i finally just sink. Once that happens well everyone will notice,but it will be too late. I trust God will find a way to save me from this. He will take care of me as he always has in the past. Hes been my friend through high tide or low tide. Always by my side. Calling me in differnt places. Hopefully this is all part of a greater plan desigined to bring me a higher better happyness | | |
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